I am listening for a voice,
It began a little while ago,
and then it stopped again,
Thought I recognized it,
Hear that? there it goes right now,
Like a whisper I'm imagining,
but now it's screaming...
Inside my head

Can you hear it?
Can you hear it?
Ignorance personified
Can you hear it?
Can you hear it?

You try to bite your words,
but they keep forming
in your mouth,
and they are libelous
hottly popping out,
I am beyond the cutting range
of your dull mind
and jagged tongue,
and this you cannot stand
You cannot stand

Can you hear it?
Can you hear it?
Ignorance personified
Can you hear it?
Can you hear it now?
You better listen to yourself,
Can you hear it?
Can you hear it now?

Follow me all the way home,
but you haven't got the guts
to come in too close,
Follow me all the way home,
You just want a chance to show
how little you really know

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Confines of Love

I'm an honest woman,
A representation of
the state of mutual
confusion within the
confines of love,
Heavy lidded darling
embedded in my arms,
I'll take a kiss to
settle payment
like a song for the gods

Does your undying devotion
only last 'til I'm out the door?
Can I keep my fingers
away from a sore?
Does your undying devotion
only last 'til I'm out the door?
I can't keep my fingers
away from a sore

Happy to include you
in my esapes,
We're the first to intrude
and the last ones to leave,
Never assume that we came with
someone that you know,
We'll go through every drawer,
and throw the contents
to the wind

Am I risking complicity?
Right here,
Right where I want to be?
Is this absurdity?
To trust you so implicitly,
Losing my complacency,
You would be the end of me,
Oh well well you're well worth it,
I've never got the nerve to do it,
Happy to include you

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Leaning Like A Barn

I hit every red light,
I threw everything out
of the house I left,
But I came back,
Walk backwards through
the door,
You didn't save a bit for me,
You didn't nod or disagree,
Our sidewalk is askew,
Our rent is overdue

I'm leaning like a barn,
I'm abandoned like a house,
I'm feeling like a knife in
a drawer

Admit you brought the drought,
You're so dry to the touch,
And I pray for the rain
I'd love to help you bake,
But the killer on your face
says you're gone,
You didn't leave a note for me,
You didn't see me sharpening,
My steps are falling through,
Our home is ready to split
in two

Don't need a sickle to
cut you down,
Don't need no divining rod
to track you down,
The rains are coming and
the sky is brown, the
weather vane is spinning,
Spinning around

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Unravel

Here I am still intact,
and I should give myself
credit for that,
But I have cast a stone
deep into my throat,
I squat on land my
feet won't reach,
The smell of blood and
bile and bleach,
I need a square foot
and a rope

We can weave, we can unravel,
We keep on sleeping
right through our travels,
We can weave, we can unravel,
Take our confusion to a
much higher level

Spit it up and hand it over
to yet another child of squallor,
Pallid wheezing,
Lost all her color,
Her dark circles
getting darker,
He crossed her palm,
But nothing seems
to wake her from her
shitty dreams,
Now she's become just one
more helpless package
of doom

The city looks especially
vindictive tonight,
That hitchhicker looks like
he's headed home to
murder his wife,
Well it's a proven fact they
don't respond to every call
for help in time,
So there she stays,
Poor little girl,
Lying on the floor of a
dirty bathroom,
No folks there's no device,
No box of gods to descend
and take this tragedy,
Tie up all the loose ends

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Suspended

In no condition
for your retribution,
Are we rehearsing?
The pain dispersing,
Verdict repeated,
No words needed,
Have I been mislead?
Alone apprehended

Leave me suspended,
Leave me upended,
Leave me suspended,
So unprotected,
Pull gently upward,
Hoisted and tethered,
Unseen and unheard
so detected

Punishment fitting,
I'm lifting and lifting,
No more aquittal,
Severe yet so simple,
Play your vendetta,
A weightless sonata,
Ascension getting,
An act I am regretting

From here you
look so small,
I'm swinging free
but I won't fall,
Lights and drapes
hang with me,
How can you just
turn and leave?

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Acathasia

One laydown machine
burned a road,
Right through the prairie,
Stream of boiling ash
painted up with perfect lines,
discount labor packing
each lane,
Bargain basement homes
sewn to the road,
Slipshod directions
do not explain

I got these shoes for nothing
and they have lasted me forever,
Searching up and down the lost highway

I can read the grid,
I have memorized the key,
Counting every inch
from C-4 to J-3,
I can think in scale
'cause I know it aint
on my map,
Scraping off the typeset,
Dig into the atlas

Well they can paint it up,
Make it appear to go somewhere,
Well they can paint it up,
But I know where it doesn't lead

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'Til it Kills

Go on further
and we will lay to waste,
Precious blooms in our haste,
We ravage all of them,
Desperate for the medicine,
Take a salve that used to soothe,
Make sure it can knock you cold,
Take a gift from nature's womb,
Reduce it to it's harshest form

I've learned to make it stronger,
To get my fill,
Concentrate it 'tilt it kills,
How can I make it lethal?
That's all I can feel,
Distill it 'til it kills

Embodiment of beauty,
Now we can engineer,
We can extract from the core
the calibrated traits,
We skillfully can integrate,
Highest grade that can be had,
Most potent substance
known to man,
If there's a price down on the line,
Push it out of your cluttered mind

The absolute need
quickens in my abdomen,
It kicks
inside,
Like an undead child,
Urging me onward
with reflexive violence,
Excruciating beat,
To keep me on my quest

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Windowsill

If I'd fit in the windowsill
I'd plant myself in your direction,
I would use the sun's energy
to make this place you destination

How dare I hate this space I occupy,
I'm left to my devices,
turning to light
I'm waiting for the cue,
To beckon to the shoot,
And break the crust upon the soil

Lack of light the iris expands,
My eyes absorb a power coming
from behind my dim room,
In my den amber and damp,
As if lit by faith alone,
I've been more faithful than you know

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Dumb Little World

You can hear the sound
of each little town,
'Cause they all sing,
every mile a town pops
up, Full of pride for
this country,
And now a shroud appears
on the horizon,
Wish I could blink and
miss this one as well

What could be worse?
What could be further from home?
Dumb little world,
Dizzy & spitting up blood

Can't live here there's
nothing I recognize,
I keep looking,
Reference points are
hard to find when each
home looks just the same,
But I can hear the
anthem playing,
That sound will drive
me further away

I won't buy into it,
This bad deal,
Not so much as
a dime for my
homeland,
This place is so wrapped up in
itself, playing
the theme song to
my expatriaton

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Land of Fragments

Hold a beverage and
a ruined reflection,
Underestimated
my trajection,
A single pane is
all that separates us,
Thank goodness that
the glass is gracious

How can this shattered
vessel hold up under
such close scrutiny,
Cruel light is cracking
every mirror that
ever flattened my vanity

I'm the fairest in
a land of fragements,
Target window stained
with time's advancement,
I'll hold the note so high,
or tie it to a brick
and let it fly

You set up a brand new
sheet of see through,
A double thickness will
just break twice,
Cold air rushing in,
Through the fracture
we saw the flaw
in the glare

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Lips Tits Hips

I got tired of the same old face,
So I quit looking in the mirror,
Such a sight,
Here's a brand new girl with eyes
that are clearer,
The older model never saw things
quite right

Lips tits hips,
Right down to the fingertips,
Ten shades of beautiful
for every disorder,
Lips tits hips,
Right down to the fingertips,
Just a hint of my misfortune

My make-over commence,
Candy coated lips can
coach me right along,
No mess, no fuss,
Perfectly natch,
I hope I learn what makes
me look at things all wrong

I'd say she was a man's girls,
Translucent with a bit of shine,
I'd say she's bad idea,
Conditions as it deadens your mind

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Past the Point

Almost to the point,
Where in the past I've given up,
But this time something keeps
on telling me I've got to go on,
So now I will try to get the
lead out of my blood and lose,
The paralyzing lies,
That shower from above

I must strengthen my
constitution,
I must gather my
resolve,
I've got to muster every
ounce of my resistance

Self inflicted doom
has left me open and exposed,
To every sickness, every fallacy
that's going around,
I will not succumb to the belief
that others hold that there is,
No defense against infection,
As I've been told

We're tolerant to the wrongs,
Dealt out with regularity,
Our toxic level is drawn
from sheer lack of humanity

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Dirty Kitchen Eternity

The harder I struggle,
The tighter you grip,
But don't need to tell you,
That's the way that I want it,
I'm easy to follow,
You're easy to spot,
I bet I can shake you off,
But I gotta want it

What good are the times
that I catch you alone?
It took an eternity and
I forgot what I wanted,
What good are the times
that I take you to task?
You get me distracted
and I forget that I'm mad

I'm up on the counter,
You're down on the floor,
The kitchen is dirty,
Pots and pans are flying,
No food in the cupboard,
a knock on the door,
Let's give it a rest now,
Buy a beer at the corner store

I'm going to bed now dear
but you still want more,
And every single word you say
I've heard before,
Oh, you're an angel
when you're in recline,
And like an anxious fist
my lullabye works fine

Lullabye and good night,
Ain't that a great song?
You're an angel in recline,
Please go to bed dear,
Please go to bed dear, please

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Berkeley Pier

I guess sometimes I'm lucky
when I go,
For whole days at a time
without thinking about you,
And ask myself why,
But then I find I'm traveling,
Traveling down,
That same old piece of road
and wind up down by the water

Whatever happened to our walls on the pier?
I cry myself alone
all the way down to the end,
I drink my bottle dry
and heave it across the bay,
to the city,
Smashin' outside your door

Oh now there goes the Romeo,
hand in hand
with his punk rock Juliet,
They remind me of two people
I'm trying to forget,
I can hear their sweet nothings
on the wind,
As I hurry to get by,
Diverting my gaze,
To the Oakland Bay Bridge

(Could that be you honey, way over on that side?
Flashin' a signal to me, Down by Pier 39,
'Cause if I only knew, I'd jump in that water
and swim right across, drowning in my relief)

Maybe I should warn them,
Should I say, "Don't do something that you'll regret.
Now you have no recollection
of heartbreak you don't have yet."
I could give them an earful,
But I don't know,
They must find out on their own,
and the thought of that
is chilling me to the bone

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